I am happy.

I hear the rain beating steadily against the open windows.
I hear Maxwell's sweet breaths bouncing off of his sheets.
I hear my husband's fingers hit against his controller.

and you know what?


I am happy.


What more could I ask for at this moment?

When I was little, I always dreamed that I would be married and have children. I always dreamed of my family getting up Sunday morning and rushing to church. I dreamed that I would bake cookies and make cupcakes just because.

I sure did dream small. I have all that and so much more.

I not only have a house with four walls and some furniture. I have laughter. I have little hands that pitter patter against the wood floors. I have photos of memories that I want to share with all that visit. I have wedding rings on the bathroom counter. I have candles burning. I have a home.

I not only have a husband that loves me. I have someone who wipes away my tears. I have someone that holds my hand when I am scared. I have someone to catch me when I am falling. I have someone that is not only my lover but my best friend. I have someone that holds me while we pray and thank God for all of our blessings.

I not only have a son. I have a boy that is healthy. I have a boy that is full of energy and loves life. I have a boy that snuggles and gives kisses. I have a boy that teaches me new things about myself. I have a little boy that depends and trust his whole life in my hands. I have a little boy that calls me mama!

I'm feeling grateful today.

Thank you Philip for always being by my side.

Thank you Maxwell you are such a blessing!

I want to be able to look back on my life and know that I have accomplished what I wanted to and fulfilled dreams that seemed impossible. I think that I am on the right track.